Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Josh & Gary

I think this is the part where everything just falls apart. I don't know what to say, or do, how to feel, how not to feel. What I do feel is numb. Which I'm not sure actually counts as a feeling. My energy and self-esteem are at a complete standstill right now. I feel like I'm emotionally slipping into a coma. I need something to make me feel alive again. Something that will awaken my motivation and my confidence so I'm not just sitting here, wasting my own time.
 

Saturday, October 26, 2013

poor capitalization

tomorrow morning when i wake up, i will experience that temporary moment of innocence and bliss... you know what i mean, right? that small, brief moment when your mind is bright and blank, just waking up from the night before. decisions, mistakes, choices, new directions, they will all come rushing back to me after that moment is up. my emotions will start to dance in the front of my mind, and i will already be in the process of facing the day, without even being ready, or wanting to. but in that moment, everything will be perfectly right in the world. and if i can see it and feel it in that one short moment, i know for sure that it does exist, i know that somehow, some way, i can achieve that feeling whenever i want. maybe even permanently. if i try hard enough.

do you ever find yourself caught in a moment that feels almost like you're in a movie? like you're watching yourself and your situation from someone else's eyes, or through a camera lens. and a song comes on, somewhere far off in the distance, or even in your mind... and it absolutely breaks your heart, because there could be no better melody, no more ironic words and movements to complete the moment you're caught up in. does this happen by accident? or are we all so connected in this world that the reason why that artist created that song was to be the soundtrack for your moment, everyone's moment? i'd like to believe so.

Wednesday, June 5, 2013

Bringin' it back...




Hello all...
I haven't logged into this since my last post at the end of August, 2012. I still have readers! I can't believe it! Over 36,000 page views is pretty impressive for a blog that is really rather mediocre. Thank you to anyone that has stopped in over the past few months to listen to my old playlists.

I don't want to make a huge post out of this, and I don't want to say that I'm "back"... But, I'd like to be. My absence involves moving from one extreme area of the continent to the other, as I stated in my post last August. I got here to Arizona on September 14th last year, and it's been quite the struggle getting settled and into my groove, but I feel at home now. I haven't been as involved in music lately as I always have been in the past, which makes me sad, but the break has been to gather my life together around me and start my own path. I plan to start going to school again this winter, and will hopefully complete an 11 month program that will open up a massive horizon of music careers to choose from.

I wish I had the time and capability to make on long-ass playlist of everything I've been listening to for the past few months. I'm assigning myself a homework project- to compile a list of my top favorites from the past 8 months and post them here to start sharing with everyone. From there, I'd like to jump back into monthly or even weekly playlists if I'm able to... We'll see!

So, be on the lookout for a pretty cool playlist in the next week or two. Hope everyone is enjoying the start to their summer... let's make it a good one!