Time Has Healed, Music Has Saved

Sometimes, it’s just so hard to say the things you feel like saying. Sometimes, what you feel goes beyond words. …Okay, a LOT of the time, how you feel goes beyond words. Whether it’s being with someone, falling in love, breaking up with someone, losing someone, or anything in between.

This is what music exists for. Music’s purpose is to help, to heal, and sometimes to create new meanings and new feelings.

Music fascinates me in ways that I don’t even fully understand. But what I do understand is that music is one of the most powerful things in the world. Without it, I wouldn’t be the person I am today, and I do love who I am today.

Recently, I’ve realized that for the first time I can think of, I feel at peace with everything around me. Nothing seems to really irk me as badly as it all used to. There are no pressing issues that keep me up at night. There’s no unpleasant, constant itching in the back of my brain. I don’t have any major issues in life. I’m happy. I’m content with most everything around me. Sure, there are little things that bother me for a few days at a time, but nothing that seems big enough to drown me in sorrow and worries like there used to be. Nothing is as dramatic as it used to be. I get along with almost everyone that is directly in my life these days. I’m so thankful for this, and it’s surprising at how easily I came to realize all of this, even after it being so for months already.

I don’t mean to pour this all out on everyone, but this is my blog and I like to share what goes on in my head because I know that someone, somewhere will be able to benefit from whatever it is that I happen to write.

My recent travels have led me to see that I have so many options in my life right now, and really all I need to do is pick one to focus on, and run with it. I have the world at my disposal, and it’s just waiting for me. There are so many places I could easily settle into, like Arizona, where I could possibly pursue my music production career. Or, I could test the waters in the quaint little town of Boulder, Colorado, where I could pursue photography or journalism if I wanted. And then there’s the possibility of continuing to be settled here, in Fairbanks, Alaska, where I go to school and have friends and family.

I guess I just need to make a decision, really. But how do I choose a path? Is there some sort of road map somewhere that’ll give my directions and show me my final destination? (Probably not.)  I wish it were that simple. What if the path I choose isn’t as exciting as the other? Will there be a possibility to combine these paths and be happy that way? SO MANY QUESTIONS!!!

This band opened for the Barenaked Ladies here in Fairbanks last Friday. They're called Roman Candle. Their music and sound is just beautiful, and just fits in with everything lately. I'm unsure of their lyrics, but I'm more into the way they sound. It's amazing. Support them!