Wednesday, October 27, 2010

In Between

I always hate the in between
Not having a someone makes me miss a someone....
It's a constant ache. 
It's like jumping from rock to rock...
That nasty feeling in between, when you're rising... suspended... and falling...
Now, I am rising. I've just left Rock One, and I have a ways to go before Rock Two.
It gives me too much to think about, and too much time to think.
Why did I jump in the first place?
How soon will I get to Rock Two?
Sooner than I thought?
Halfway there, now. 
Rock Two is in plain sight. This is that pivotal moment, locking onto your target.
I'm suspended there, in between where I've jumped from and where I'm about to land.
Too late to go back now, because soon, I'll be falling...
And then it happens.
It's your gut that sets in, and you know you're going down, getting closer and closer to Rock Two.
No looking back, it's almost over.
The ache is almost over.
What if I miss? What if my aim was off, when I jumped in the first place?
I'm still falling... can't stop now.


I hate the in between

Monday, October 18, 2010

Music... Duh. (September Playlist)

I'm starting over. Which makes sense, because I truly have started over. Or rather, changed for the better. 
So here's to October, time is new. What I'm saying is, I want to blog about music... why didn't I do that from the start?


Something interesting about me is that I'm very OCD about my music collection. My iTunes is the most organized personal item I own. Each month, I need new music. At the beginning of the month, I get new music. I make a playlist of this music, and I listen to it all month long. In this way, each month of my life has a soundtrack. I almost always have memories that relate to a song. I can tell you when I got the song, why, how I relate to it, the most important memory I have of that song... etc. It's really pretty cool. 


Last month's playlist was pretty awesome, if I do say so myself. So now, I present:

Some September Getdown (yes, "getdown" is a word.)
                                              



Intermission
Senator & The New Republic
Wild and Young
American Bang
Lero-Lero
Luisa Maita
Bringing It Back
Master Shortie
Auburn - La La La (Feat. Iyaz)

Magic
B.o.B ft Rivers Cuomo
Butthole Surfers - Pepper

Hot Tottie (Dirty)
Usher Ft Jay Z And Ester Dean
The Truth
Kris Allen
Teenage Dream
Katy Perry
DJ Got Us Falling In Love Again (Feat. Pitbull)
Usher
Everywhere She Goes
Across The Sky
All I Want Is You (feat. J. Cole)
Miguel
Crazy
James
Interstate
Randy Rogers Band
Si Es por Amor
Wait. Think. Fast.
Aw Naw
Nappy Roots
Ride
Nappy Roots
Inside of You
The Maine
Disarm
Smashing Pumpkins
King of Anything
Sara Bareilles
Half of My Heart (with Taylor Swift)
John Mayer
We'll Be A Dream (Feat. Demi Lovato)
We The Kings
A Drop In The Ocean
Ron Pope
You're The Reason I Come Home
Ron Pope
Summer is Gone
Ron Pope
Mix 6 : Blame It On The Pop vs Warpin Mix
DJ  Warpin
Heart Shaped Box
Nirvana
Come As You Are
Nirvana
Smells Like Teens Spirit
Nirvana
Live Your Dreams
Les Brown
Club Can't Handle Me (feat. David Guetta)
Flo Rida
Rhythm Of Love
Plain White T's
Naive
The Kooks
Believe
The Bravery
Kids
MGMT
Kids (Feat. MGMT)
Chiddy Bang
Epic
Faith No More
All The Above (Feat. T-Pain)
Maino
Say You'll Haunt Me
Stone Sour
Po' Folks
Nappy Roots
Walk Around the Lake
Lost In the Trees
Run Back to Your Side
Eric Clapton
Hasta la Verdad
Javiera Mena
The Best Day
Atmosphere
Freefallin'
Atmosphere
The Loser Wins
Atmosphere

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

The Nap

College lesson #1- The Nap is back.

Back in preschool, naps were for taming us cranky children until our parents reluctantly picked us up to go home at the end of their work day.
We weren't old enough to realize how truly special the Nap is!
In grade school, we start to think about it. We start to realize that the Nap has been taken away from us. Oh, the snack crackers we would've traded to have a nap time after recess. It obviously would've helped our teachers out, after listening to the typical 8 year old's conversation day after day.


“Why did the chicken cross the road?”
“Because it wanted to get away from the people.”
“I’m sorry but that doesn’t make any sense.”
“Yes it does!”
“No it doesn’t, that means it’d be roadkill.”
“So? That’s better than being eaten by people!”
“No it’s not! Would you rather be cut open, or run over by a car??”
“…neither, I’d rather live!”

If I were a teacher, I'd have given them as many naps as they wanted.

Then comes middle school. In middle school, we get depressed and full of angst. No more recess. Now it's boyfriend/girlfriend drama that we got all wrapped up in like we thought it was our lives on the line. I hate middle schoolers.

Now, I'm still too bitter about high school to include much now, but all I can say is that nap time in High School probably would've solved any drug or violence issue happening during and after school hours. We were all just tired, angry and bored and had nothing better to do than pick at eachother for  4 years straight. I do know of a few individuals who decided to master the Nap- Come home from school, sleep for an hour or so, and then get back to ignoring homework and being destructive in some way. 

That isn't a Nap.

College students, we know what a Nap is.
A nap is anywhere from 10 minutes to 2 hours. It can be done between classes, in a dorm room, on a  couch in the lounge, on a bench in the lobby, in the car, you name it. 
And naps are important. Why? 
Us college students are TIRED. We may say that we aren't. But we are. We may drink enough Rockstars to worry we've caused a heart problem- but we are tired. We may not drool like one, but we walk around like zombies. Circles under our eyes, slumped and slouched. 
Why are we tired?
Come on now. Everyone knows why college students are tired. 
They're partying. Having sex. Drinking, usually illegally. Smoking weed. Playing loud instruments at all hours of the night.
WHAT?! How could I say that?! That's not true! College students are up late STUDYING, cramming in every minute they can at 4:30 am!
Well, party or study, it's all true. But this is where the Nap comes in.

Here's a lesson from personal experience. 

The night before my English paper was due, I said to myself, "Hey! My English paper is due tomorrow morning. As ridiculous as this prompt is, it's still worth 100 points. I suppose I should start my research."
This is at approximately 11:30 pm. 
And so I started. At about 2:30 am, I realized that the last four times I had spelled the word "alone", I had forgotten the "e". Well, crap. "I'm tired," I thought to myself.

And so I took a nap. From 2:35 am until 3:45 am, I slept like I had never slept before. 

Upon waking, I found myself oddly refreshed and ready to keep working! I finished my essay 2 hours later, and even made it to class on time. 

So, for those of you who think you're ready to remaster the wholesome fantastic awesomeness of the Nap, here are your guidelines:

Set your alarm.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

a lesson?

College lesson #23- When the tray in the microwave doesn't rotate, it burns the popcorn.
How to solve- open the window, prop open the door, and throw the bag away in the bathroom across the hall.


I don't know why I said it was #23. Because that would be assuming there are 22 before it. Are there? Probably. And I'm sure I know what they are. 
Maybe I'll assign myself a new task. Come up with a list of College Lessons... and how to solve them. This could be fun.

Here's another fun college one-


College is:walking into class with the lines from your wrinkled sheets still indented in the side of your face.

Yes, I'm sure we can all relate to that one.

Monday, October 11, 2010

The Way of the Works of Life

So first I'll start off with a poem. I wrote this about a year ago, and it was for no reason in particular. My creative mind was going crazy so I just started writing. I love it when that happens. :)






The rhythm of our heart beats like rolling ocean waves beat 
against the sandy shores of love and yesterday,
when tiny drops of water filled with many memories
fell upon our hearts like rain and created harmony
And did the sleeping temptress find her box of wooden spoons?
our souls combine in open time to make me sway and swoon.
If trees and grass and little birds all sang a song of love, 
the earth would melt and we'd all die the many deaths of love.
Seeking shelter from the sun, the heat it feels like hell,
hold me down and cool me down with water from the well
of great times and great songs and great music from the heart,
standing on the edge to see,
then get a running start.
Spread thy wings, oh simple one, and learn of something more,
fly away to complicate and slam the ugly door
in the face of evil, in the face of wrath,
love thyself and do the math.
When you believe in you, then will I surely believe in me.
If lonely hearts and lonely souls combine with mystery,
the wonders of the world would hum a jealous melody
of better times and feathered wings and hopes that don't come true,
I pray to see the day that I'll come home to lovely you.
In every way and every day, the sun shines down its rays
for us to use and so abuse its love in every way.
Feeling wind and feeling storm until the storm subsides, 
I hold you close and never broke,
my promise never dies.
I love you now and every dream will always be of you,
and I will think and wink and drink to lovely toasts of you.
You You You.

Purposes

I suppose the point of this blog is to allow me to express myself in writing, which I do enjoy. I’ll share poems, stories, and anything else I feel is worth it for someone else to read. I hope that what I write may help someone somewhere, and if that’s too much to ask, maybe it’ll at least give me something positive and productive to do.

I feel like a new person lately, and I’m not sure why. I have some new views and perspectives on life, and writing them seems to be a good way of organizing them.